Empty Sorrows - My grieves

Beware "Soul Gone Crazy"

Essence of my trust has been shattered by the betrayal of my belief . My hope has let me down , down to earth . A state of mind never understood by the human feeling of mine , Capturing moments with memories . Looking back with my lonely thoughts I realised I was at the edge of breaking down . Maybe I owe karma owe-fully a lot , punishing me with all this backstabbing from ones that I loved and trusted dearly  has wounded my mortal soul so deeply that the scar is a bad wound never treated but never forgotten . I asked myself ,”why must I endure all this? ”,then I look up .

Ash Of Time

Innocence betrays ,

Dignity sacrifices guilt ,

Murdering sincerity ,

Judging the reality ,

Punishing the silence ,

Untold pain of centuries ,

Story of the forgotten time ,

Blaming the present mystery ,

By : Maxime Nath

Living in this constant time that lives trough the present , many forget their past but only to be burdened by the thoughts of the future . Humans can be so cruel as the most evil demons but kind as the most sacred angels as well . But normally we forget our angel part and kept to our demonic part of our life , slowly infecting our soul with arrogance , lust , selfishness , most sickening of them all is backstabbing and shattering the trust of your hopefuls .     

Being me

Beware "Soul Gone Crazy"

Being me is though sometimes , all the people around me seems annoying sometimes frankly most of the times . Life seems to so mysterious yes with some misery at some point . Sitting in a corner wandering my ups and downs making me realize that past will remain as a past and thinking of the future can be pain in the ass sometimes . People close to me backstabbing and being selfish has always triggered my anger and disgust towards them but in the end the truth is "In life there only Me , Myself & I"

- Maxime Nath -

It was happening 6

I went back home that night with a beautiful sensation i felt throughout my conscious , i felt as though a butterfly flying in my stomach .It was the most beautiful night i ever had . I was at my balcony where I first saw her , Light up a stick of cigarettes . I was thinking and thinking about her .
I knew that day I must have her to be part of my life . Looking back , I never had a serious relationship . I never believed in a relationship before . But looking at her now I realize I was wrong all the way . i wanted her to myself to be a part of my life , I so badly needed her and i know at that point that I will do anything to have her .

I text-ed her good bye through my phone and when to bed with a sweetest dream i ever had in my sleep . I had a pleasant sleep that night . My hand phone ringing woke me up , it was her , Sandra "So where are you Alex ?",she asked me . "I just woke up , with my boxer on "I said while laughing .

"Well I am actually overlooking your apartment from down here" and she giggled , "listen today i want to meet you in the coffee shop we met the other day , there is something interesting and urgent that I have to discuss with you in personal and not through the phone "she continued .

"I will be there in 10 minutes", I answered .

I took my shower in a hurry and rushed to the coffee shop . There she was waiting for me , I felt so happy to know that she was there waiting for me . That made me flatter . "Alex , I've been waiting for you for ages , where have you been " she looked nervous . I look at my watch and I was 5 minutes earlier .

" Well Alex let me introduce you to some one special , Alex meet John and John meet Alex , " She introduced me to a stranger that i know is about to shatter my heart . "Well Alex , John is actually my fiancée    and we have meet recently in fall last year and decided to get engaged . We are planning to get married in November and as your the best friend of mine , I want you to be the "best man" for our wedding " she said happily . I was speechless for a moment , as the girl that I thought will be a part of my life has just asked me  to be the best man for her wedding , What a heart breaker ! I thought to myself .

why ....

Life's question to us is "why" ,,,,,

Do you have any answer

The lady pitbull

Thanks

Beware "Soul Gone Crazy"

Identifying silence thoughts

In your presence

Missing your knowledgeable love

In your absence

Enlighten wandering soul

With the touch of your smile

Beauty bows

Showing the mortal world

The immortalized memories of you

Lived on through our memories

Guiding our mind

Sailing through the turbulent

Ocean of life 

It was happening 5

Dinner never felt so good , i thought to myself . We promised for a candle light dinner at the cafe just down the street . I made the effort to book the best table in the restaurant add on with a with of the finest and convenient champagne . I used up my 2 months of saving for the dinner , but to realise that she's having dinner with me , money didn't matter at all . i felt like I could spend her millions if I had those sort of money .

Day retired to give way for night to fall , I dressed up with the finest cloths and foot wear which was a jeans and a shirt with my pair of Timberland shoes . I was there before she was . I waited for her with a bouquet of roses . Then from the far end of the restaurant facing the view of the road from the safety of the large window in the restaurant , I saw the the door opened by one of the waitress . She walked in with her gorgeous smile lighting up her face , with a beautiful sky blue gaun on her which made my dress up look a bit too silly . She is so beautiful tonight .

I did the gentlemen's honor by pulling her chair and giving her space to be seated at the table . The waiter light up the candle after we were seated and I ordered for the champagne bottle to be brought in . The 3 dinner course themed love at first sight complete with bands playing slow love song's in the background . The dinner started with appetizers then moved on to the main dish , It was awesomely cooked mutton steak with potatoes and truffle sauce , and to finish it off a beautiful paired cup of ice cream and strawberry puree .

That was the most awesome dinner I ever had for a very long time . After the dinner she looked in to my eyes and said "Thanks Alex for this superb dinner , It's a simple dinner but it was very beautiful . Your simplicity is capturing my heart , I really do like your simplicity ". "It makes you what you are ", she continued . I just kept smiling but she didn't knew that she has already captured my heart . After the dinner , sipping trough the champagne we were having some chats and she opened up to me about her plans for the future and her dreams , maybe she's having too much of champagne i thought to myself . she had all those big ambition and dreams which i wish i could be part of it . We didn't even notice time passed by .

It was getting rather late and I decided to walk her back to her place . Suddenly she pooped the question "Why can't guys be as good and romantic as you ", I simply answered by saying "Why can't girls be awesome like you . That day I saw a hope for me to be a part of her wonderful life . To my shocking she just lives in an apartment few blocks away from mine . We gave each other our number and said good bye for the day ......

TO BE CONTINUED

To my dear blogers and followers

I am officially changing my pen name from GNath to Maxime Nath , which will be my permanent pen name . Sorry for the confusion .

Thank you
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It was happening 4

I couldn't sleep that night , My thoughts was surrounding only on her . Romantic scenery and rhythm fulfill my sleepless dream that night . How am I going to express my feelings to her . Being a very straight forward person , I have lost touch on her matter . Wow I thought love can be blind but i realise only that day that love also can change some one . It was around 0500 am that day , I woke up and felt so blurred , happy and confused at the same time . Well let time and god decide . So did I pray .

Time was so cruel to me that day . It was 10.00 am and i headed down to the coffee shop as planned and there she was sitting there and looking at her watch . What i forgot that day was my watch is 15 minutes late . I walked up to her with a box of chocolates which i brought from the shop next door and greeted her with a smile . "Shall we have our breakfast , a coffee and waffle would be nice " she said . " Well I actually don't take coffee i don't like the taste of coffee", i replied . "I knew it , You were following aren't you "She was laughing at me . I was speechless and with a cool tone i just shred it off by saying "No , I just wanted to taste the coffee here ".

Time passed by smoothly , i never notice the changing of time when I was with her . we were talking about our life , the past , the present and the future . She was telling me about how her life went after high school up to her university life and her working days . The more i was talking to her the more i realise that i am in love with her . It was getting late afternoon . We departed in our own ways and promised for a candle light dinner the next day ...

TO BE CONTINUED

touch of love

As my brain knocks my head ,
I set my eyes on her ,
A feeling that I can’t explain ,
Surrounds my consciousness ,

Music of soulfulness ,
Comforts my feelings ,
My heart was indeed ,
Craving for her ’s ,
As though I’ve been ,
Enslaved by her thoughts ,

It was happening 3

She sat next beside me and I was so awesomely awed by her . If only I could hug her and comfort her , rhythm of love was beating fast in the flow of my heartbeat . Such a women , There she was Sandy the only girl to woo my heart and disturb my conscious . She was talking to me as if she knew me for years , "do you know Alex I use to admire you during our high school days but you were too popular that I was unnoticed by you , So how's you're life ? She kept on talking to me but I was so thrown away by her beauty I knew then I was in love , A feeling so beautiful that i can't explain through words .

" Alex are you there ? why do you look at me that way ? Hello ! " she snapped me back from my little romance dream of mine back to reality . "No I was thinking a bout something , Is a small world . Anyway hows your relationship , any boyfriends ?" I asked her . She just sighed it off by saying ,"I got no time for myself and no way I got time for any guy in my life".

I was so relieved to hear that . H mm wish I can make her mine forever . Thats the only thing that was going on in my mind . I am usually talkative but on that day I was so quite in her presence . She made me speechless , "Okey Alex I have to leave now , I am already late for my work . By the way I am working as a in the Bank just end of this street as a customer service and relations officer . You are invited to drop by anytime , bye then " she said . " Hold on there , so when can I see you again , maybe a cup of coffee sometime ". I spoke up to her . " Well today is Friday i am off for tomorrow , Tomorrow will be great , a cup of coffee and breakfast will be just nice ", she said back . "So be it , so tomorrow morning around 10am here , Set . In case I am late how do I contact you ", I tried to get her number . But she was cautious and just laugh off by saying , "Don't worry I will be waiting for you ".

So she said bye and just went along to work . My eyes kept watching her as she went by until I lost the sight of her among the crowd . She kept turning back and looking at me wit her sweet smile . After she left , i felt like rains of rose petals dropping on me . I was so in love , A feeling that I never felt before .

I went back to my apartment and time was rather slow for me that day .

It was around mid-night when I doze off into my sleep , anxiously waiting for the next day to come ...

TO BE CONTINUED

L.I.F.E mind & matter collide

LIFE

Past ,
Lies in the history ,
Together with memories ,
Strengthen by time ,

Present ,
Lives in the dust of mystery ,
Moving through the moment ,
Dimension of the forgotten ,

Future ,
Life ‘s Anticipation of destiny ,
Hoping for a dream come true ,
Burdening thoughts ,

A minute past is history ,
A minute now is a mystery ,
A minute after is a unfulfilled destiny ,



“ Life is clouded by the mist of real and illusion . Only to be judged by the sanity of mind and the insanity of our heart ”

L - Living
I - Interesting
F - For
E - Eternity

It was happening 2

Only the next day I planned to approach her . But i was very nervous cause i'm going to approach a girl i never knew before and hopefully don't get a beating of it . I have always enjoyed thrills in my life but never expect it to be this thrilling , God please Help me was the only thing going on in my mind . So i put my mind together and just followed my heart , which turned out to be the ride of a life time .

Got up rather early that day , and put on my clothes and prepared my self for the drama of the life time . I waited for her that morning just the opposite of my apartment . Then she just showed up from out of no where , time just freeze in her presence . I was so blown away by her . I followed her , she stopped by the local coffee shop to buy some coffee . I join the queue just behind her . She started to notice me which made me anxious . She bought herself a cup of coffee and sat on the table just outside of the shop .

i don't like coffees but for the sake of love i bought my self a cup of latte and sat next to her table , i felt so silly . I tried looking at her but every time i look into her eyes i just go carried away . Then suddenly she walked up to me , i was so shocked , 'Hi Alex how are you , you are Alex rite , Don't you remember me?" she said to me , I was speechless and so struck-ed . "hello are you there , it's me Sandy your junior in high school . And i was thinking to my self "damn how could i missed her in high school".

She sat next beside me and . . .

TO BE CONTINUED

It was happening 1

As time passes by according to the rhythm of the nature , I was standing in the balcony of my apartment filling my lungs with the smoke from my cigarettes . I was looking down to the streets with only my shorts on . It was early morning around 0730 am , the city streets are busy with moving vehicles and walking passer by's rushing to their work . It was a normal sight on a working day , but i felt something was different that day . An unusual feeling surrounds me , my heart beats faster and i felt a nice warm gush of wind in my face . A simple look to my right changed my life , there she was among the passer by's walking . At my first sight i felt as if I've seen an angel , my heart starts to beat faster as if I am mesmerized in her presence until i never notice the the hot cigarette butt i was holding . I knew the i was in love at first sight , but i was too deeply surrounded my emotions of unexplainable feeling that i almost fell from my balcony . So I waited for evening to come , and so i did waited then there she was walking among other people . My heart just freeze for a moment in her presence , I was blown her way by her beauty and the elegance i saw in her . She was tall , charming and captured my heart .

But I didn't approach her at first . Only the next day ...

TO BE CONTINUED

Ever Lonely

I thought to myself to forget the past but my present doesn't want to let it go . This is how i feel now days . For me the past is not to be forgotten but to be cherished and made as part of our life . Or life in the past teaches us to be more weary of the surrounding world and appreciate life more . Life is short and uncertain so don't complicate it more with unnecessary complication of the future , live for the moment and let your present determine the unknown of the future .

Fading Away

Losing my time in this world , Thats how I feel right now . Life is uncertain fill with sweet and sometimes sour memories . So how do we cherish those memories as human are known to be forgetful , I capture my memories and thoughts trough my passion in writing as I believe my heart lies in what i write and my soul lies in my writing .


Still searching for my real self ,,, who am i?

Ship that never sank

It’s been long ,
Since we were together ,
Sharing and caring ,
Our happiness and sadness ,
Making me miss your presence ,
In my life ,

We’ve gone trough a lot ,
Together bond in time ,
In the ship that will ,
We sail together ,
Our friendship will never sink ,
Immortalised trough eternity ,

You are a big part of me ,
Together will we be ,
In our memories forever ,

MISS YOU MY FRIEND

By : Maxime Nath

Serenity

The Moon lies under ,
Mist of loneliness ,
Waiting ,
night after night ,
Day after day ,
Never understanding ,
The sun shine’s reflects it’s light ,

As sunsets in the west ,
Deflecting it’s soul to the moon
Giving new hope ,
Till infinity ,
But never to be understood by the moon
Amazing life’s puzzle

By : Maxime Nath

What is and what is not

Wound so deep,
It bleeds grieve ,

Faking is what I see ,
Untruthful to ourselves we are ,

Love is in the past ,
As a part of our past ,

Left are only memories ,
Only to be sank deep in our ego

Hatred has taken over ,
Turning us all aboard

Loneliness’ is true
Forever and ever


By : Maxime Nath

Looking Forward

Being an so called author excite's me . As I believe my heart lies in my writing and my soul lies in what I write . Writing has been always been my passion . Recent events has change my perspective towards life and relationships . Since small I have been always looking for an adventure , making me a nature and outdoor activity lover but now days I find my adventure in stories and poems I write . ow involved in a project in with collaboration with the ever exciting Maya . A project on a life's view in two different perspective . Looking forward

Insanity

As I walk down the streets ,
Into the unknown ,
Looking around ,
I see myself surrounding me

Looking deep inside ,
Only to look myself closer ,
To realise ,
I have been sleeping all along

Mind and matter collide ,
What is mind ,
Never mind ,
What is matter ?
Is in my mind

Defying the truth from the false ,
Identifying right from wrong ,
To make sense

What is real and what is illusion ???


By : G.NATh

Serving me right

Thing aren't the way they are supposed to be . Always I have wondering the truth thats always been so blurred by dusts of illusion . So many time I have questioned my sanity . Being selfish is what I see in many of u but blaming others in our way has been the down part of us .

The funny thing is this process of being untruthful we are actually cheating ourselves in the process ...

My Point Of View

Soaring the sky of open wilderness
Spreading my wing’s of freedom
Through the enchanted unknown

No worries in hand ,
No set back in my mind ,
No ties to be bound ,

Measuring the depth of infinity ,
To find everlasting serenity ,
In this world filled with mystery ,

- This is my point of view –
The simplest thing in life brings the greatest different ,
We just look too hard till unnoticed ,

By : G.NATh

Ash of time

Innocence betrays ,
Dignity sacrifices guilt ,
Murdering sincerity ,
Judging the reality ,

Punishing the silence ,
Untold pain of centuries ,
Story of the forgotten time ,
Blaming the present mystery ,



By : G.NATh

Dissolve in Time

Loneliness taught me to be sincere to my soul ,

Hiding nothing between us ,

All my life ,

Questioning my sanity ,

To be one with my soul ,

Is my quest ,

I silence my senses ,

To quiet my mind ,

Reasoning my life ,

Seeking immortality ,

Questioning “where am I ?”

To answer “who am I ?”

To be “what am I ?”

I seek the path from you

By : G.NATh

Radical Republic

Extra ordinary series of revolutionary measures ,

New life in a old nation , .

Checkmate

One steps I move my soldiers ,

Answering the call of war ,

Defending my castle ,

Protecting the King inside ,

Two step I move my soldiers ,

Facing my enemy in the battlefront ,

Pushing all the way ,

I command my bishops ,

Moving narrowly in the battlefield ,

Blessing lost souls ,

Time goes by ,

One by one soldiers fall ,

Summoning my knights ,

To the call of war ,

The queen was the loyalty ,

Moving the king from behind ,

Protecting him always ,

Rampaging trough enemy line ,

By a sudden ,

Trembling the soul ,

To lose it all ,

Checkmate!!!

By : G.NATh

Insanity

As I walk down the streets ,

Into the unknown ,

Looking around ,
I see myself surrounding me

Looking deep inside ,

Only to look myself closer ,

To realise ,

I have been sleeping all along

Mind and matter collide ,

What is mind ,

Never mind ,

What is matter ?

Is in my mind

Defying the truth from the false ,

Identifying right from wrong ,

To make sense

What is real and what is illusion ???

By : G.NATh

Decibel's Motion

I’m weak ,

I felt on my knees ,

Bend over ,

Heads down ,

Catching my breath ,

Gaining my broken spirit ,

Amplifying my thoughts ,

To be one with my soul ,

Standing up ,

Facing the enemy inside ,

In this last great battle of mine ,

Life is short , uncertain , painful , fill with endless sorrows , grieve But It doesn’t matter how many time you were defeated ... What really matters is how many time you fight your way back and still standing strong .

“As defeat entertains victorious ,

No victor is without defeats ,

As every victory has its own defeat ,

Only to glorified in the defeats ,a true victor”

- Victory shall be mine - By : G.NATh